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08 January 2011 @ 12:09 am
I'm Posting?!  
It's a new year and I'm making changes.

I'm going to open up and make connections...and reconnect with those whom I've lost touch. Those who are worth it anyway. I'm going to stop censoring myself and start speaking my mind; I've had this awful fear of being seen as a bitch ever since I started college and that has got to go. I'm going to whiten my teeth! I'm going to start taking my art seriously. I'm going to dance and choreograph. I'm going to read and go on walks and visit parks and museums. I want to paint! I want to go on a road trip. I want to go on an acid trip? I want to go to the movies at 6:00am. I want to feel like myself again.

Today I realized that Cory is now the longest relationship that I've been in! It feels SO GOOD. After a period of questioning everything just seems so certain and right and lovely. He is so snuggly and loving and fuzzy and perfect and puts up with me struggling to find myself. I was so painfully unhappy most of this past semester and thanks to him and the fates it seems as if things are changing.

I also babysit two beautiful little girls. They drive me nuts half of the time but it's worth it to remember the magic of being 4 1/2...and 6. They are also responsible for this cosmic shift I'm experiencing. I'm never getting a real job again! I've also introduced them to Rugrats on Netflix sooo I guess I'm also responsible for ensuring the next generation is awesome.
Current Location: my room in Bellport
Current Mood: pleasedpleased